On Learning From One's Mistakes

I cannot keep making the same mistakes over and over. I have vowed that I will not hit my head on the same wall, the only difference being the space in between the hits. While I don't want to work and go to school at the same time, I cannot be without a job. I spent my 20s hopping from job to job with long droughts of willfull unemployment and I get sick just thinking about being in the same predicament. I think the best thing for me mentally is to keep working. I don't make nearly enough money now and it stresses me out, I can't imagine the circles my mind would be running in if I didn't have any income coming in. I can't rely on unemployment because I'm sure that could run out at any second, so, I guess I should prepare myself for a different kind of stress; working full-time while going to school part-time. Oy. Wish me luck.

Telegram from the braindead

I am working 50 hours a week. STOP. I will be working this schedule for the foreseeable future. STOP. Why do I always seem to get jobs that turn me into a workaholic? STOP. I currently have no energy or wherewithal to leave the house unless it's to go to work. STOP. I fear I won't be able to get ahold of my emotions and I may rage out at work. STOP. Someone send help posthaste. STOP. Help in the form of another job. STOP.

On Work, Part II

I'm at the beginning of a three day weekend and I'm so excited I could explode. I think Americans place way too high a value on work. The most important thing about you shouldn't be what you do for a living, or how long you spend in the office, etc. If a person I've just met can only talk about their job, I know instantly this is a person I have no interest in knowing, I think their values are skewed. Yes, it's important to be a working, productive member of society, yes, it's important to make a living so you can support yourself, yadda, yadda, yadda, but at the end of your life, do you really think you're gonna say to yourself, 'I shoulda spent more time at the office,?' No, you're not. So take a day off, call your best friend from high school to catch up, go see a movie by yourself, go for a walk in the park, volunteer at your favorite charity, just live. It's so much more fun than spending a day in the office. Trust me, I know what I'm talking about!

It's a New Dawn...

...And I'm feeling good! I went back to work yesterday (a week early) and while I'll have lots of new and not so exciting things to do at work, my main focus is still producing words everyday. I am cautiously hopeful that I'll be able to pick a routine and stick w/it so I don't fall behind on daily word output. I'll also have to input working out and going back to school in the equation, but that won't be for months (the school part), so I need to focus right now on the writing. I did a little bit after work last night, hopefully I'll be able to jot down a few words this morning and do some work when I get in tonight. Wish me luck!